In the early hours of the morning, I awaken with the intensity of emotion on my breath as I transcribe the images that have danced before me. Days are marked by roles I have shared between broken landscapes and coincidental occurrences. And from a distance, I observe vivid contingencies, which further arouses this awareness within me. Grasping to remember, although wanting to forget, I ponder the remarkable illusion, which patiently awaits its unveiling or cleverly reflects the mind it travels.
The assignment for this art project was to make a tool to fix an emotion. I thought about what specific emotion that I wanted to work with for my art project and I could not pinpoint a dominant emotion. I am, however, heavily influenced by my dreams. Therefore, I attempted to create a "tool" that would allow me to take a closer look at my dreams by juxtaposing a window and a mirror.
Throughout my life, many of my dreams have come true, which are not related to myself. I have also had dreams that come true and I do not realize what is happening until after I leave the situation. A few summers ago, I was a purchasing agent for a hardware company. I had a terrible dream in which I could not fit the numbers into the computer for an order. I could remember the numbers the next day at work. I told my boss about it and he insisted that I go play the lottery. My friend and I went to a gas station across the Virginia border. When I tried to put the numbers from my dream on the card, it would not work because you cannot pick more than one number twice. I was supposed to use two two's. But my only option was to pick either one two or two and twenty-two. I was in a panic because I knew that the numbers had to fit. Finally, I realized that my dream had come true.
Not all of my dreams come true. But after so many have, I always wonder what exactly the dream from the night before is telling me. If you have any comments about my sculpture or about dreams in general, please e-mail Caroline Rutledge.