too much pressure

Saturday, October 23, 2004

back to short and sweet

Yo, it's the weekend, john and I talked about teaching last night mildly while inebriated... I think I want to teach in a school where I'm really needed... I don't like rich brats.
peace out

I'm glad john's a teacher too... it's good to have someone to bounce ideas off of.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Back in black

I taught today...
I forgot everyone's names, but I didn't call anyone by name
I didn't know how to do a problem the way they did it, but it was okay cuz I asked a student to help.
It was good for the first day.

Buh-bye

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Back up again

Today's a good day. Even though it's overcast, I'm still energetic and happy.
I feel good about high school teaching right now. I was helping some girl with classwork and I felt like I was asking her leading questions rather than telling her how to do the problem. I wish these students could articulate what they are thinking. I have no idea how to help someone if I have no idea what page they are on to start with.

I guess as a teacher you want to drag out their deepest darkest secrets... hahaha just kidding

Oh and Kevin signed us up for a volleyball league... not too excited about the sport, but I like all the people so that should be fun.

Peace out homies...

Monday, October 18, 2004

That kid's back on the elevator again

That teacher is wearing those shoes again.

I don't know if it's the three hour classes or if its the way the classes are set up, but this is killing me. The one black girl in the program cried today because of something I said. I feel like I can't get across what I actually think about things. I am hoping that the blogging changes all that. We were watching a workshop some woman did where she discriminated against people with blue eyes (in order for them to empathize with minorities). I was okay with this except that she also used it as a lesson with her third graders. They were getting into fights at recess and some kids cried about it. I don't think it is okay for a teacher to put students in a position where they are so angry they are fighting with each other. I made some comment about how it's not okay for a teacher to make their children cry. The black contingent came back saying black kids come home every day crying so it's good that other people see waht it's like... I didn't get a change to respond to that (I don't think that's okay either, but two wrongs don't make a right).

Anyway, the teacher gets mad at me all the time because I am discussing the issues with a student next to me via notes. I shouldn't be forced into a position where the only way to share my opinion is with the whole class, I should be able to discuss it one on one with a friend of mine or in small comfortable groups where my comment isn't thrown out there to be taken the wrong way, I need a chance to further explain.

Whole class discussions only benefit the teacher who can interject whenever they want.

School is so boring, do I really want to be a teacher?