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Here are some of the poems I wrote over the years.
I actually have many more,
but there are a few of my favorites. If you want to share som of your
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An Unexperienced Journey
4/1/04
Still are the fond memories
Of that day in time
When a voice of clarity
Seized my insipid mind
I had admired your beauty always
And the silent grace you wore
But never heard you speak before;
God knows I'd been wanting to know more
The sound came out from you
Somewhat timid but firm;
You were told to share your stories
And you told it in your own terms
With the words you first wrote then spoke
Of Adventures Near and Far
While I sat there, mind wandering
Gawping through my clear glass jar
I held my palms against the two-way pane
And tried to absorb your every word,
With hopes to understand
And to mindfully escape within
Beginning with your first voyage
To green plains of a land unknown
To me, back then I was in my cage;
Receding whilst I should've grown
Then came your journey way up high
Up to mountains that met the sky;
These are things which I was denied
What your words have shown my sight deprived
You traveled also to a distant land
Filled thickly with people of a foreign sort
Crowded in a miniature port
Speaking languages you didn't understand
Lacking the knowledge you did not need,
On foreignness your mind did feed
A hunger that you had fulfilled;
I sat still listening; chained and thrilled
Many more journeys you did depict
Of tender and jovial things
Always discovering and uncovering
Never knowing what to predict
Traversing the unknowns much as you can
Bestowing your bliss to my imminent recall
Living freely without a plan;
Seems the greatest plan of all
When you'd finished all your speaking
I was left wanting even more
You said you'd continue seeking
Out there, to uncover unknown (strange new) shores
Knowing you are to travel to where I won't be,
At least not yet anyhow
Imagining you there alone and free
I would like to be there with you now--
When your words ended I felt a numbing pain;
Although it did my spirits impel
But knowing I may never see you again
I silently bid you farewell
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Apathy
4/8/04-4/11/04
(Screaming so hard, veins popping from neck and
white of eyes)
A tiny giant hollers at the deaf with full confidence
His first breaths hot and pungent with meaning
But the sounded words were mouthed towards
An unresponsive, echoless crowd
(Faceless, they see only what they want to see)
Though the faceless can't hear, they can see
This small, energetic giant heated in anger
Such determination, vigor, life and drive
The fierce motion of his waving hands was too much
(He bashes down walls with his forehead)
This hardheaded giant, who bashes down wall after wall
Only to find the next wall thicker than the previous wall
A mind-bending feat, bashing down wall
Extremely disruptive to all-- who built wall
(Wind blows from nowhere, screeching dead halt
against mountain)
But even the strongest roaring hurricane wind
Can't budge a heap of muted mountainous mass,
Rather it grazes the shallow surface greens;
Its unruly shrieks sway them all to take shelter
(Eye survival: Finds food and danger)
Though they can't hear, they can see
And what they see and don't like, they fear
They will do anything to contain
What they can't contain-- they destroy
(Giants are called giants for a reason, they
want a fight)
One tiny giant cannot easily be destroyed
But he can still be passively exhausted motionless
By their lethargic blank stares clearly glazed over with nothingness
And by their own unintelligible voices that they can't even listen to
(Clouds stand in front of the sun)
Like the muffled sun light in the sky
Filtered by a light cloudy haze
Just enough to give way to the rain
To come crashing down, in grains
(Fatigued, who actually listened?)
The tiny giant wants to be heard and understood
But by the time his hands stopped waving signs
And his heart stopped pumping voice;
The message already lost, but hopefully founded
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Apples and Pears
5/30/03
Enticing to eye
Apples and pears
Sweet to tongue
Under the skin layers
The fruits were placed up high
But I wasn't to be denied.
I was but a few years old
And thought myself bold,
I began to scheme
To come up with something
And achieve this dream;
Only then would my heart sing
I pictured the shapes
Of the fruits I would taste,
Such a sweet escape;
My mind now raced with haste
My rationale was caving
And tongue now raving;
My taste buds tingled with empty sensation
As the eyes widened with fixation
At the tips lied its intrusions,
At the sides round protrusions,
Its seamless curvature
A most appetizing rapture;
Had I a pair of wings
I would be able to reach
Even all other sweet things
That I had not yet chanced to breach
I thought long and hard
But nothing would come to mind
The obsession for the nectar
And all its sweetness remind
The fixation drove me mad
I should use a chair
Then I would take my bite,
Without a single care
Tastelessness brought me pain
But the thought of it kept me slaving
Little could be done to keep me sane
Except to satisfy the craving
I would grasp it tight
That ripened delight,
And wrap it in my fingers;
Oh, on my lips it would soon linger
Sweet, lucent and succulent,
The juices would stream.
I'd relish every drop
To be without it just makes me weak
A sweetness found deep in heaven's abyss,
Comparable to a long desired kiss
A savoring bliss
With it I would never be remiss
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Dream In Your Awakening
5/30/03
Dream in your awakening
Not just in your sleep;
As new ideas creep,
You'll see reality darkening
In the midst of this shadow
Maybe you'll realize
In the game of perception
True discernment is the prize
For a dangerous web
Has been weaved;
Watch your step,
The entrapment runs deep
Insights will be blinded
Dangers won't be sighted
Hidden within the shadows
Are the deadly battles
These battles begin
Only from within;
Agonizing pain
Brought on by twisted self-disdain
One false step
And you'll become entangled;
The monster from within
Attacks from all angles
Broken mirrors reflect the consumption
As the twisting turns into distortion;
Blood streams out from your sight,
As you struggle with all your might
The festering of the soul
And the corruption of the mind
Will leave you heartless and cold
And all the once-truths behind
As you hold your eyes in one hand
You begin to understand
Only by inner sight
Will you see true light of day
In the midst of complete darkness
Your psyche can no longer contain
The emotions can no longer bear it
So your body begins to pain
The image of the nightmare
Slowly becomes real
Less and less you dare
To check the broken mirror for appeal
Close your eyes
And believe
Open your eyes
You may be deceived
All the noises you see
And distractions you hear
Can only be blocked out
By letting go of things you hold dear
Hack away the unessentials
Along with meaningless credentials
The one truth is within
Where your search should begin
Inside your mind;
Seemingly a limited space,
Lies infinite immensity
Where true spirits race
That is the power,
The power you hold;
Wield it, and your dreams will expand
As all the falsehoods begin to cower
Picture yourself growing endlessly
What do you find?
No matter how big you get,
It still fits right inside your mind
Be bold;
For you have been told
Of the power which you hold,
Life is your own to mold
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Girl of Dreams
3/15/04
I have already seen her before,
In snippets through dreams;
Fragmented pieces that show
The wonders of mind's eye
Putting it all together was work
Hard work but well worth time
I see each parts of her come
Together to become a whole
I have seen her eyes quickly gaze
Moving on as a fleeting as a glance,
Vanishing quicker than a soft word
Spoken by a stranger one table over
Her conversation intriguing;
Engaging soul and speaking
Not with her mouth but mind
Me listening with all my will
Never before wanting to listen
But now a new yearning to do so,
So I can engage her the same way
And elicit her wonderful laughter
Laughter uniquely impressive
Drawing attention everywhere
They turn to see whose laughter;
Realizing I am the sole recipient
Of a smile sparkling with charm
Pair of lips that part as she beams
Shimmering teeth is subtly revealed
White, passion red, and flesh
Her hair airborne as she turns
Not by the wind but my hand
Untangling each silken strand
Wrapping it around my fingers
Her eyes suddenly speaks to me
Her body moves closer to me
Both making one bold statement;
Wanting to be closer together
She gives her head a slight tilt
And looks over at the door
Her cold body needing warmth
Each goose bump recedes with
Warm gentle kisses from my lips
Softly grazing along, barely felt
I brush her with cold fingers
Soft shudders craving more
We warm up after some time
Patience a slow hand makes
Uncovering the burdensome garb,
Gently blowing across her surface
Covering her with silken ecstasy
My intrusions her protrusions
Each heartbeat counts down
Onto our hearts' meeting
One atop another breathing;
Feeling each others' beating
An undulated delightful bliss
Sudden burst of natural responses
Dilated pupils and shots of breath
Sudden relaxation in body and soul
I wake up wearing a wide smile
She had gone away from my sight
I look to others who never saw her;
Her brief existence was only for me
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In Music
11/17/03-11/18/03
In music
The underlying
Beat
Continues on
Underneath all the
Necessary clatter
The Controlled clatter
Is so melodic and organized
That we lose
Ourselves in
Song
Draws upon emotions
Sadness Excitement Motivation
Happiness Contentment Relaxation
Love and Salvation
Not forgetting
The underlying
Beat
Is the base
Of it
All
The clatter builds
Character
For us to emulate
And grow from
The underlying
Beat
Keeps us going
Keeps us flowing
Gives us balance
Sets our pace
For the underlying
Beat
Is there
To be
Found
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Incessant Bother
4/7/04
The incessant bothers of my wandering eye
To catch a glimpse of that astounding sight
So brusque a pleasure I won't deny
Me, even if it "isn't right"
Evanescent to my eyes
Life is short, *pause/blank* its delights
The incessant bother, my mirroring eye
Wanting to create that astounding sight
For strangers' pleasures I can't deny
It's all so wrong, but I feel so right
I, evanescent before my own eyes
Life is short, *pause/blank* its delights
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Like Romeo And Juliet
Romeo and Juliet showed that love could be real
That one first kiss, marked their passion's seal
Upon first sight, love took to their heart
Never could they imagine ever being apart
She had refused Paris and sought Romeo instead
Much to her family's dread
To defy their parents and refuse the family name
Showed that to them, love is no game
What made their love a love so strong?
That they remain together, when everything else went wrong
The troubles they went through, just to be together
Showed the strength of the two souls bounded to one another
A love so strong, captivates so few
But when it does, there's nothing it can't do
Love gave them will, to die side by side
Their devotion was true, with nothing to hide
They'll remain together always, beginning that final night
And all this had sparked, from that love at first sight
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Lucent Gift
5/2/03
Somewhere beneath the soaring skies,
Between the ground and the mountains high;
Lies a layer that eyes do not see
Yet permanently shown in clarity
The ground I walk on I can feel,
The blue sky I see seems so real;
What keeps me alive I cannot see,
The life I receive from its lucency.
I swing my arms across empty space
And feel its lingering on my fingertips
With such empathy and grace;
Clinging on as purity's paste
This emptiness which we occupy
Is also where our dreams reside;
An extension of heavens' eyes,
It gazes deep within our own eyes
Pellucid in its lucidity,
A realm that lets light flow through
While also permitting darkness to imbue,
Glory is hidden within its transparent hue
I offer to you what I cannot see
But it's the best I can hope to give you
I offer my emptiness to you;
Don't take it, just fill it with you
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Masks
2/22/04
Until the hand of enmity
Lifts the shroud of decency
Can I stare into the mirror
And truthfully see the reality
But the "face" in the reflection
Only shows a "near-reality"
Wrapped in bone and skin
All still concealed from me
The face I want to see
Is one that can't be shown
One that doesn't want to be seen
Sometimes it escapes even me
So what chance does it have
To be seen by others?
Slim to none I must say
And now there's hell to pay
Forget trying to rouse empathy
I'd be glad if they don't get pissed at me
But since they don't understand me,
I understand where they're coming from
This means it doesn't matter
Whether I'm truly me or not
As long as I'm living and breathing
Some will understand and others won't
There's an infinite layers of falsehood.
My true face I ripped off so long ago
For the fake masks I now wear
I take off one mask only to find another
Alternating lies for so long
I can no longer see the truth
I try to find the face I've lost
To no avail
I do the best I can with the masks I wear
And try to mold it into the face I remember
The face my dreams were once made of
The face that I will wear when I draw my last breath
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Special Nobody
5/24/03-6/1/03
So many times this has happened
And many times it will again
The appearance of that special nobody
Who comes and goes
A laughter so unique,
It never fails to soothe me
The sound has me (so) enthralled
I wish to make her laugh (some more).
There's something about her eyes
Or maybe that pleasant smile
That opens the floodgate
Of (to) enchantment
Certain parts of her I see
Stand out more than others
Could it all be for me?
Or does it already belong to another?
The clicks of heels
That follows her approach
One by one growing louder,
Music to my ears
The music stops
When I face her;
What do I want from her?
What does she want from me?
Thoughts are incoherent
All I can think about
Is nothing;
My mind is blank
Even a simple "hi"
Comes out after much consideration
Then comes the quick goodbye;
I think it's failure once again
So few words,
Yet much emotion
I wish for more words
And no goodbye;
Not really knowing her,
I stand before her
A simple man,
An invisible man
Knowing she may never know
That she meant something to me;
And never knowing
If I meant anything to her
The mere presence of her
Animates all activity in my body;
As anxious perspiration flows
And blood pumps harder throughout
I feel the need to feel
And feel the need to love
Imagine if you will
Something you haven't felt before
Senses you've yet to use
Beyond which you have been given
A sight so magnificent
A sound so pleasurable;
You may not understand
But neither do I;
Having never held (that someone) her,
(and) Not knowing if that will ever be
All these feelings I feel fill me
For reasons I know not why
Although I grow more empty
Still, the filling won't subside
I need to awaken from seclusion
And seek out that special someone in the night;
If she would let me in her slumber,
We'd escape the emptiness together,
And bridge the gap of our vestigial dreams
To form a road of unifying endeavor
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The Answers Lie
11/6/02
...the answers Lie.
Somewhere out there,
truths often Die;
but for those who don't care
All is Fair.
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Time
2/2/03
I look at the clock
such an amazing thing
infinitely running,
forever binding
The clock looks back at me
a voice from within it speaks
"why are you so blind to see,
I'm not as important as I appear to be"
Got to keep deadlines
the clock is my friend
it organizes my life
its usefulness knows no end
Keep running my friend
I enjoy this little game
I keep you on your toes
and laugh at you without shame
Round and round you go
I'm starting to get tired
Can't stop just yet
or else I will get fired
Time fuels me sir
I can go on forever,
forward is the one way I go
but backwards never
I can't believe I just did that
I need to change the past
I can't take it all this stress
How much longer will this last?
Take a look at the sun
and enjoy the natural surroundings
Take deep breaths in silence
you'll hear your own heart pounding
The world is too noisy
The tension is mounting
I don't have time for deep breaths
I can't hear my heart pounding
Then I'm sorry my friend
There's not much I can do
You can try and keep up with me
But I'll always be ahead of you
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"I won't accept that "
there has to be a solution
My life is going crazy
with all this confusion
A solution I have,
There's one thing you can do
let go of all you have
everything you've accrued
But how can I do that
I've worked so hard for it all
To let go of everything
would be forcing me to crawl
Then follow me if you want
I have no more to give
Until the day you die
I will dictate how you live
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Unlocking the Fold
3/22/04-3/23/04
An overwhelming noise
Silences our fears
Flattens out voice
And brittles the weir
Crash comes down in waves
Unexpected its arrival
We'd turned a blind eye;
Such is our dire survival
But existence holds the key
To unlocking the Fold
The farther we see,
Chances us to be free
And break the mold
The evil in which we live
Is our permanent residence
Where the devil once lived;
Still lurking-in vengeance
He seeps in-in our negligence
Negligence is the key
To our own destruction
For we cannot see
With our true senses in detention;
He hand us maps
Charting our desired course
Knowing we'd only follow
Not knowing the source;
Life is linear
The end is near.
Trapped inside an old still photo
Not reminiscing, but dwelling-
There can be no alto,
If we let the past's swelling
Linger in our throats-
Engorging our present living
Living momentarily in rigid grounding
Prolonging a future of dying
Posing as if life is never-ending
All but amounting to a fear of flying
We cannot see what we hear
Nor hear what we see,
He covers our head with veneer,
He being the uncertain powers that be-
With no choice we breathe
And live aimlessly
He holds our hands and
With our fear gone
We know not what's going on
Life we know it is but a green mirage
Emanating from a barrage of streamlined voices
The sounds starts off small but turns into a war of attrition
Each one crashing longer and louder until it all becomes a volley charge!
Our minds crazy with unknown fear and ineptitude and our actions suddenly
cease.
And all moments of our life
Freeze--
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Walked Alone in the Streets
9/9/03
…walked alone in the streets
Feeling lost and beat
…had not foreseen
life's unforgiving tragedies
Inconsequential ones considered remiss
But the important ones can't be dismissed
One action affects another
And another then another;
The shedding of all these tears
Creates a sadness that'll fill the years;
The best memories are cherished,
As bad ones eventually dwindle and perish;
But the happiness that remains
Can still bring pain;
A pain so deep and personal
That no one else can ever fathom it all
Although they may try
They can never truly know why,
Or how;
…Feel it inside,
But how to let it out?
The good memories seep into dreams at night
Wish it could be here to stay;
Can't bear the memories during the day,
Because only bad ones continuously replay
Cherish the good of the past,
To see some good in the future;
It's a fight to be fought
A fight that fate has wrought
One can't deny it
But has to face it;
…Feel it inside,
But how to let it out?
…Feel it inside again,
want to shout
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